Thursday, October 15, 2009
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
The 2nd and most overwhelming of all is the obsession with being skinny. This has been an issue all of my life, as I'm sure it is for most girls living in modern America. We just can't be skinny enough. After my first marriage ended I dropped an insane 40 pounds within 2 months. It was obvious the reason for it, so no one questioned, everyone understood. And I was thrilled to lose the weight. I was starting my life over, had a new perspective of the world, a new body, a new joy...
I kept off most of the weight for several years, through a very stressful relationship, but once I met my husband I grew content with my life once again. We played house, I cooked dinner every night, packed our lunches for work, always had the cabinets and fridge stocked so my husband never went without. Now I'm paying for it. I've gained 30 pounds in the 2 years we've been living together.
Meg's testimony really hit home. I read her blog today for the first time and it opened my eyes to the reality of what I'm doing to myself... of what I've been doing to myself for the past 10 years of my life.
Now let's compare the me of the past and the me of the now.
Objectively I look at these and say there isn't much of a difference. Then I realize it's me I'm looking at and flaws scream at me... fuller face, thicker waist, meatier arms, wider hips... the list goes on and on.
Bottom line is, I need to change my lifestyle. That's what it's all about.. developing good habits. I start now. I'm going to lunch. Adios!
Anyway, I wanted to share photos from the family vaca to Myrtle Beach in August. It was my first week-long visit with my little angel of a niece, Haley.